Reflections on my first year as a PhD student.
by Chris A.J. Brown
I began writing this blog post a while back when I reached the 6 months stage of my PhD. I felt the need to ‘get writing’ as I had come across the first instance of a widely cited period of uncertainty and possible jadedness of the PhD process- defining your research. What was my PhD actually about?; Am I doing this correctly?; How can where I am now turn into an 80,000 word piece of expertly written and unique piece of academic literature? In all honesty, even 12 months in, some of these feelings still present themselves but they have now been accepted as par for the PhD course and are in fact just part of shaping and defining the research. However, it made me think about a different part of the PhD. Quite often the individual mechanics of working on a PhD are lost in the rhetoric of impact, quality and the production of papers. Although these are key points, a PhD is just as much about training as it is about being a bona fide researcher. For me, one reason I chose to come back to University to work on a PhD was to gain further training, skills and knowledge in a particular field of research and to have a greater input when returning to a job. The following revisits some of what I wrote around 6 months ago when I found the grit, definition and focus of my research left wanting and where it has left me now – about to move into 2nd year.
PhD students are often bombarded with training and guidance on what to expect of a PhD, to quote a description given to me years ago, is “the closest a man can get to bearing a child” – it is ultimately a very individual and at times isolating experience. Now this is a bit over-theatrical and implies an over-erring, pessimistic view but it does in some respect hold truth. Fortunately, the experience I have had so far has been positive and challenging but it has also made me realise there is an aspect to a PhD that is often not considered and perhaps represents this individual and ‘lonely’ phase.
Much of this guidance and training which is provided for prospective and current PhD students is well targeted and of genuine use in preparing for the journey ahead. But six months into my PhD while trawling through bounds of literature, writing and casting a critical eye over my field of research, it became quite hard to know whether I was moving in the right direction. Supervisors have a key role to play here and fortunately mine have provided the perfect balance of guidance and space to make it my own. The ‘standard’ training that is given to PhD students often comes prior to starting with further support throughout but is often more focussed on the main and practical aspects such as thinking about concepts and theory; posing strong research questions; starting the field, desk or lab work; beginning the write up; or preparing for the viva. During this phase of research it made me think about what I had experienced with regards to the actual mechanics and cognitive process of being a PhD student, and researcher in training.
For many, you arrive at the start of a PhD from two channels (although not exclusively). One is to begin with a very clear idea of what your research is about and it may be a broad continuation of either an undergraduate and/or postgraduate dissertation or interest. The second channel may be that you begin with a wholly new topic to which you only have a very broad idea as to what your research will be about. In my case, I was the second channel. This presented challenges. Although I was privy to many of the concepts of my PhD – UK labour market and unemployment – I began my PhD having recently been working for a well established research organisation in London. I was therefore somewhat disengaged from the rigour of the academic world and the processes required for writing towards a PhD. I had the basic broad knowledge of the research area but had not engaged in much of the large theories or concepts that lay behind such a topic – perhaps an obvious difference between the ‘academic bubble’ and the ‘real world’.
The challenge is that not only do you have to get to grips with your chosen field of study but, in my case, it was another period of getting to know a new University, staff, and colleagues. For some this is an easy process but for others it may not be so simple trying to balance these interlinked components of academia. ‘Toing and froing’ with research ideas, designing research questions and seeking a gap to fill in broad spectrums of literature is an all encompassing task. Once you move into the twilight phase of first year, the PhD research should be shaping up nicely but you are presented with new issues surrounding how you will add to existing knowledge; will this be a unique and forward thinking piece of work that will be well considered by specialists in your field?; What academic papers may evolve from this piece of research?
Now, the first point to raise here is “yes, but all PhDs are different” – I am specifically coming from a social science perspective. What I have said above may not appply to everyone but the main points should broadly apply to all. As part of my PhD funding I am fortunate enough to be entitled and invited to attend and take part in a number of doctoral training events that help to network and bring together all the like minded inter-disciplinary PhD-ers in Scotland. These events are an invaluable part of the the PhD process. Not least because they provide some informal training and guidance on many aspects of studying towards an PhD but there should be emphasis on one word: training. The key thing to remember through the 1st year of the PhD is that you are still not the expert but you are in a process of training and specialising. The highs and lows that come with beginning a PhD are to be expected. The research is your project to which you need to take owenership and focussing on that will keep you enthused and determined.
_____________________________________________________________________________________________I hope to add similar blogs about the PhD process and training as I go, partly for reasons mentioned about the individual mechanics of doing a PhD are often not considered but also as a means to write non-academically – another part of the training. I would also ideally like for other PhD-ers and academics to comment and add to the discussion. And if anybody is interested, to add their own blogs or discussion I would be happy to help accommodate or help. There exists many outlets to discuss such PhD topics such as ‘#phdchat’ or ‘#acwri’ on Twitter, and so I only hope to add to this useful support and advice network.